A little Van Gogh Inspiration again

 

       " There may be a time in life when one is tired of everything, and feels

as if all one does is wrong, and there may be some truth in it -

do you think this is a feeling one must try to forget and banish,

or is it "the longing for God", which one must not fear,

but cherish to see if it may bring us some good?

Is it "the longing for God" which leads us to make a choice which

we never regret?

Let us keep courage and try to be patient and gentle."

Danni xx

I just can't get you out of my head...

I had an encounter yesterday with a gorgeous gorgeous little man at Finn's preschool. I saw him in the morning when he was being dropped off and my first thought was "Oh he looks like a  cherub" He had that white blond hair, big blue eyes and beautiful skin with rosy cheeks. But a real sadness in his eyes.

I also thought about him a couple of times throughout the day ( hectic as it was). When I went to get Finn that afternoon the same little boy came up to me and stood leaning on my leg as I was talking to the teachers. We were having a good old natter and this little one just kept hanging around... I found myself absently playing with his hair as I talked - not even realising what I was doing - just like it was one of my kids. He looked up at me with these big blue eyes and my heart melted. I told one of the teachers how gorgeous I thought he was , that there was something about him and that I hadn't seen him before. They said that he was in foster care and not sure how long he was going to be there. My heart melted a little more.

As we continued our social chat, he stayed by my side - then ever so quietly and gently, I found these little fingers and hand slipping into mine - holding on tight - just like it was meant to be there. My heart melted completely.

I wanted to take him home with us there and then.

As some of you know.. we tried for a baby for 7 long years. It was a long and rocky road and included a lot of heart ache and loss. But - we got there in the end and have been blessed with two beautiful children.( More about this journey in another posting at another time)

Along the journey at several points, I contemplated foster care and adoption. But since having my two, these thoughts have been pushed back into the recesses of my mind ( what a scary place that must be!) - however they have always been there. I am a carer by nature, I can't help it - sometimes to my detriment I know - but that's who I am.

The Big Cheese and I decided a couple of months ago that we wouldn't have any more children - a concept that I initially struggled with - although I supported it, I just couldn't get my head around it. I mentioned then to him that I was OK with this as long as we didn't rule out Foster Care completely... being the big hearted man that I married him for.. he agreed.

I can't help but feel that I encountered this little man today for a reason... after all... I don't believe in consequences, do I??

Danni xx

You know....

.. how things just seem to come along when you need them... like a song on the radio that makes you smile from a distant memory just when you're feeling a bit blue...or you just happen to find exactly what you were looking for .. in the most unusual place?? That kind of thing? Are you with me?? {Well as an aside .. I don't believe these things are coincidences.. but that's a whole other post ( stay tuned) }

But....

What I wanted to share was that I had one of those moments this morning! Things here are a little... let's say "strained" at the moment ( just cause of the renovations)

 and I wasn't a very nice person to The Big Cheese last night...

actually, we weren't very nice to each other, but I was out of line.

 We even went to bed on a sour note - not something we make a habit of doing.

I was wondering this morning how to address it when I came across this

from Louise L. Hay:

"Share your good with others. Kindness, love, and appreciation are the greatest gifts you can give."

Just what I needed to put things back in perspective at just the right time. Coincidence?  

And then I saw this:

Maybe I should start to  smile more?!?

Have a wonderful Peace-full day

Danni xx